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The Swan's Heart: June 2005
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Thursday, June 30, 2005. What do you say? Master had His pre-surgical hospital visit yesterday. So I went along. Mostly to be a second set of ears, but also to schlepp all His stuff. The man does not travel lightly: there is His planner (which weighs a ton), and there is the fanny pack (where He stashes the gazillion knives that He would normally carry in His pockets but.). Nurse person is dutifully writing notes, and asks, "T is? And then we meet Jennifer, the physical therapist. "T is my wife and t...
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The Swan's Heart: March 2005
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Wednesday, March 30, 2005. Just lots of stuff. The best of news first: T's CT scan results came back, and the shadow on the X-ray was a shadow. Just a shadow! Nothing more. Standing with your back to the sun. Turn around. It's a shadow! She called and told The Heretic, and He called me, and with the news ringing in my ears, I could only gasp and smile like a fool, and almost giggle - we were all just giddy with the relief of it all. Posted by Sue @ 9:45 AM. Monday, March 28, 2005. Posted by Sue @ 3:02 PM.
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The Swan's Heart: January 2005
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Friday, January 28, 2005. Her recommended "Plan B," I already know, from talking with her previously, is going to be hysterectomy. Seems like everybody, but me, thinks I'm foolish to want to hold on to the old uterus. After all, what the hell good is the darned thing? No I don't think so. Once it is gone, I'm just shit out of luck. But hey, I won't have periods anymore! But hey, I won't have any more periods! Can he save me I wonder? I feel like I've got 5 months to live. Posted by Sue @ 12:06 PM. More r...
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The Swan's Heart: December 2004
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Wednesday, December 29, 2004. The phone rang just after dinner. His father calling. His mother had fallen in the kitchen and maybe broken her hip. She was refusing to allow His father anywhere near her. Fear and uncertainty and need and the need for support. He and T are off and on the way to them. They've called me as things are happening. Keeping me informed of developments and news. Posted by Sue @ 8:57 PM. Posted by Sue @ 8:52 PM. There are a whole "raft" of things that I'd talk at length about this ...
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The Swan's Heart: May 2005
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Monday, May 30, 2005. Migraine Headaches and M/s. I have migraine headaches. Have had them all my life, since I was just a little bitty thing. The earliest ones that I remember started when I was about 5 years old. I'd tell my parents that my neck hurt. They'd put me to bed, and I'd simply lie there in the dark and cry miserably from the awful pain. As I got older, the headaches got worse. I'd really forgotten how wicked this stuff can be. Posted by Sue @ 9:03 PM. Saturday, May 28, 2005. It was absolutel...
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The Swan's Heart: February 2005
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Friday, February 25, 2005. And as if there isn't plenty else going on, I am struggling with the SM. Getting through it, but not well and not happily. No joy. And it is not because Himself is not trying to accommodate me. He's made adjustments, gone easy, tried to slow things down, lighten up, do it nicer, make it good for us both. Still. I so often enter into the beginnings of a spanking in fear and dread. My mind in a dark whirl. What do I do? How do I find my way back? I'm just not sure that that sort ...
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The Swan's Heart: April 2005
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Saturday, April 30, 2005. And today is better. I have no way of knowing how many read here. Some, I know find at least some of my inner storminess disturbing, and for the very best of reasons want to "save" me from the winds and waves that wash across my spirit by times. Asked if that lesson had been learned even without the strapping? I told Him, "Yes, Sir." And so I did not have to endure the rubber strapping that I so dreaded. Master knew. T knew. We knew. What to do to weather the storms. There will ...
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Lair of a Dark Rebel Siren: August 2005
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Lair of a Dark Rebel Siren. Siren: a dangerous beautiful woman. Being powerful is like being a lady. If you have to tell someone you are.you aren't. Monday, August 29. Coughing on all the dust on my blog:. My computer was in the shop and then I got it back and then it was back there again. Ugh. I want to write more but I really cant think of anything interesting to yak about. :) I need to write a bunch of ideas down and pull them out of a hat. Who wants to put the first slip in? Siren posted at 7:29 AM.