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Beautiful Things: July 2013
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Wednesday, July 31, 2013. Jude's 2 Year Photos {by Mommy}. I love you, my beautiful boy. Monday, July 8, 2013. As I've mentioned very recently, I have been struggling a lot with my anxiety and have even questioned if I've also been on the verge of depression. It's been an extremely dark and difficult few months, as I had not been able to shake any of these debilitating feelings. Judes 2 Year Photos {by Mommy}. Soundtrack to our life. Beautiful Things by Nicole Feller on Grooveshark. Things I Blog About.
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Beautiful Things: November 2012
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Friday, November 30, 2012. I miss how magical the holidays felt when I was a kid. It seems now, I spend more time in disbelief that the certain date has so quickly rolled around once again than I do really feeling festive! Things may not always be as magical as I imagined they would be when I was a kid, but no matter who or what I have lost, no matter the struggles or triumphs, there is always always so much to be thankful for. There is love and life in my home. And that is more than enough. I climbed in...
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Beautiful Things: April 2013
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Tuesday, April 23, 2013. I believed I was all better. I hadn't felt paranoid or anxious in a few months. Not since Jude's seizure, really. It all began last Friday, when Daniel and I were out celebrating our seventh dating anniversary. It was one stupid thing after another, all strung together to pull down my happy mood. Why would He allow this desire to anchor so deeply since childhood? Oddly enough, just like last April. Wednesday, April 10, 2013. What's it like to hold your own chubby pink baby girl?
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i miss him still – Our Lives Now…
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Our Lives Now…. Our story of great loss and great love. it's not yet over…. I miss him still. February 4, 2015. Sometimes i feel like i can’t keep it together with 2 living kids. but i do wish with every fiber of my being that Julius was here adding to the chaos. i miss him still. i always will. Jan pic from The Sacred Seashore. Feb pic from The Sacred Seashore. One thought on “ i miss him still. February 5, 2015 at 9:40 pm. Leave a Reply Cancel reply. Enter your comment here. Address never made public).
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1 year old rainbow boy – Our Lives Now…
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Our Lives Now…. Our story of great loss and great love. it's not yet over…. 1 year old rainbow boy. March 5, 2015. Our littlest boy has just turned one. what a huge milestone for us! I was at grocery store buying E’s cake and candle, when the bagger asked “so who’s turning 1 today? 8221; without thinking, i said “my son” and had to catch my breath. i had never answered that question with those words before. it brought tears to my eyes. Not really feelin’ the photo shoot. Me and the man upstairs. You are ...
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Beautiful Things: December 2012
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Saturday, December 29, 2012. Jude with my amazing cousin, Rachel. Our family. This was the best we could get Jude to cooperate. There were way cooler things going on at the moment than smiling for yet another photo! Beautiful boy in his Santa jammies. My parents got Jude some very wonderful gifts. Of course, he loved playing with the wrapping paper and boxes, like most children do! I'm sure he will tear into them next year! His new truck from my parents! Wednesday, December 26, 2012. People I know. C...
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Beautiful Things: October 2012
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Wednesday, October 31, 2012. Capture Your Grief : Day 31 / Sunset. Today concludes the Capture Your Grief project for Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month. The theme for the last day is sunset. Now I have to be honest. Because of it being Halloween and spending time with my family, I wasn't able to make it outside in time to capture the sunset. But I do have a lovely photo of a sunset from a few days ago that I will share. Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness. Tuesday, October 30, 2012. I long to kno...
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Beautiful Things: May 2013
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Wednesday, May 29, 2013. I remember feeling so happy and so delighted over Jonah. I was excited that Jude would be getting a brother and that we would get to raise another baby. But then, inevitably, I woke up and Jonah disappeared. There won't be a Jonah. I just wish I could have Jonah. Tuesday, May 28, 2013. Anxiety lives here now. I hate what I have become. I really can't live like this. I am alive. I am well. I am not fighting for my life. I. I don't want to adopt. It doesn't solve any of this...
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Beautiful Things: Right where I am 2013: three years, three months, eight days
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Friday, June 21, 2013. Right where I am 2013: three years, three months, eight days. Just like the past two years, Angie at Still Life with Circles,. Has encouraged us all to share right where we are at this moment in our grief. My post from last year can be found here. So, where do I stand in this up and down journey on this rugged terrain of grief? Then people nonchalantly suggest adoption, as if I've never heard of it before. That is not something that we can afford. And my heart aches for my. Nicole,...
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mother’s day 2015 – Our Lives Now…
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Our Lives Now…. Our story of great loss and great love. it's not yet over…. Mother’s day 2015. May 12, 2015. This day. my feelings about it have changed dramatically over the last 5 years. My first mother’s day (may 2010), i was still pregnant with Julius and was anxiously waiting his arrival. i felt cheated because i was still pregnant, and D was going to get to celebrate Father’s day with Julius in his arms. Mother’s day 2011. Mother’s day 2012. Mother’s day 2013. Leave a Reply Cancel reply. You are co...
