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beyond the john: life beyond my eating disorder: let's have a heart to heart chat
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Beyond the john: life beyond my eating disorder. Let's have a heart to heart chat. Let's lay it out: i'm in relapse. Ouch that is painful. It's been ironic, i suppose you could say, being in relapse. (btw, i'm sure that is a huge reason why i haven't written in so long.) i mean, here i am, creating a blog about life in recovery and i relapse. I've been going back and forth about a few things. one was whether i should even keep this blog. i mean, it seems a little uncomfortable to say, "hi, here's...About...
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beyond the john: life beyond my eating disorder: freedom to live
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Beyond the john: life beyond my eating disorder. As you might have noticed, I've been m.i.a. i'm at a family reunion (hence, why I was traveling). Is my dress staying closed? Oh damn, all these relatives I don't know - I hate having to meet new people) than things food-related. It's nice, yo. nice to live. nice to live beyond ed. Posted by a c. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). View my complete profile. Baby shark - doo-doo, doo, doo. Putting down my fork - or - one bite at a time.
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beyond the john: life beyond my eating disorder: adventures in family reunions
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Beyond the john: life beyond my eating disorder. Adventures in family reunions. Because there's nothing else to think. because I have. Warrant an asterick. I think she probably said that either because she'd heard about my eating disorder, so was a little more sensitive than usual, because she didn't know but was still trying not to be rude, or because seeig me for the first time in years caused me to really seem, in her eyes, to look good. I look how I look. Oh, I've got more for you. Is it my attempt n...
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beyond the john: life beyond my eating disorder: putting down my fork - or - one bite at a time
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Beyond the john: life beyond my eating disorder. Putting down my fork - or. One bite at a time. Each time i sit down to eat, i'm starting this new practice of putting my fork down between bites. whoa, novel thought! I'm finding it interesting how much of an exercise it is. Best to keep the fork and knife in my hand in case i had to stab that person. don't you dare. Take my crumbs,. Another reason why i barely tasted my food was because i was always multi-tasking. reading the newspaper, surfing online...
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beyond the john: life beyond my eating disorder: you've got to be kidding me
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Beyond the john: life beyond my eating disorder. To be kidding me. So, a couple days ago i mentioned taking a couple pictures on my family reunion trip (see: adventures in family reunions. As you might recall, i had a slight freak-out when i looked at my hips, butt and thighs in one of my favorite pair of black spandex workout capris. To be kidding me. Seriously. i looked at my body and said, somewhat angry, somewhat disgusted, this. Is the body that i'm constantly frustrated with? Nice to look in the mi...
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beyond the john: life beyond my eating disorder: ihopping around
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Beyond the john: life beyond my eating disorder. I noticed the spikes chick because we were sitting diagonally from one another. I wasn't paying much attention to her but as is sometimes the case when sitting diagonally from someone, a glance up can be a glance in the other's direction. She went to the bathroom. for all I know, she had to take a shit. I do know that once she came back, she asked her sister if she needed to go, and the sister went. and was in the bathroom for five or ten minut...C) quite ...
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beyond the john: life beyond my eating disorder: crying
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Beyond the john: life beyond my eating disorder. Today, we had a family reunion sermon thing. at one point, we were doing a family prayer - well, don't have me trying to explain it. but anyway, I was feeling a lot of emotions and tears started flowing. Now you have to understand - I do not. Like to cry period. let's not even talk about crying in front of people. The only thing I could tell myself was, let yourself cry. I didn't particularly want to, but really, what other choice was there? Posted by a c.
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beyond the john: life beyond my eating disorder: dissociating
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Beyond the john: life beyond my eating disorder. Want to get away? Unlike the southwest moniker, some people aren't that fortunate. some people find that try as they might, they just possibly can't get away. one way that people deal with this is by disassociating. I've heard of both real and fictional characters who dissasociate. i'm not talking multiple personality. i'm talking one personality that is sometimes a million light years away. First, let me share something that someone once told me. this...
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beyond the john: life beyond my eating disorder: hilarious comic
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Beyond the john: life beyond my eating disorder. Ok, i know i have been horrible. At keeping up w/ this. for my job, i've been checking out various blogs and i kept thinking, 'wow, this person hasn't written for awhile. that person hasn't written for awhile.' yep, fingers pointing right back at me. i won't even try to make excuses. Anyway, just saw the most amusing comic and had to post it. i love shit like this! Click on the picture to get to the person's website). In other words: fuck. Posted by a c.
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beyond the john: life beyond my eating disorder: December 2008
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Beyond the john: life beyond my eating disorder. Let's have a heart to heart chat. Let's lay it out: i'm in relapse. Ouch that is painful. It's been ironic, i suppose you could say, being in relapse. (btw, i'm sure that is a huge reason why i haven't written in so long.) i mean, here i am, creating a blog about life in recovery and i relapse. I've been going back and forth about a few things. one was whether i should even keep this blog. i mean, it seems a little uncomfortable to say, "hi, here's...About...