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July | 2010 | Life
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Archive for July, 2010. July 5, 2010. Been almost a few months since i last posted. Right now, i am in Rizhao. Thank God that i am not alone here as my bosses are Singaporeans too and we have lunch and dinnder often together. It is nice to have company here. Facing a liar is not what i want for the rest of my life. Just pray that everything will be well soon. Been a year or so. Blog at WordPress.com.
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September | 2010 | Life
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Archive for September, 2010. September 26, 2010. At the end, what really matters? What is it that i care for? Myself, others or God? I have strayed far away from Him, so far that i do not know how to face Him anymore. Practically i do not really care much during my stay here. How to speak of His grace and love? I have forgotten how to do that to the people here. I am not a good witness for Him. What am i doing actually? Father, am i still able to call You that? Been a year or so.
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October | 2010 | Life
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Archive for October, 2010. In Rizhao once again. October 12, 2010. At least, i still have some faith in God after my trip. I realised i really need fellow brothers and sisters to support me in what i do. But she never understand this, have no need for someone like her who does not and will never understand. Been a year or so. Create a free website or blog at WordPress.com.
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December | 2010 | Life
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Archive for December, 2010. December 14, 2010. Some events happen and i will not be moving to Nanjing anytime soon, but it is sort of ok with me as i will be doing some other stuffs here. One guy told me something which i find it is quite true. It does not matter where you work but how many friends you have over there. I have plenty of friends here, thought many are also leaving but i have gained some power here so at least i am at some level. My effort is being known here by lots of people.
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August | 2010 | Life
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Archive for August, 2010. Where art my heart? August 11, 2010. Has not been blogging for a long time. Since like i have nothing much to say now these days. Everyday is just a passing day to me. What meaning does it hold for now? Father, where art my heart? I am lost for what to do. What am i becoming of now? Why did You leave me all alone now? What is right and what is wrong? How did people view me in the first place? Can’t they still contact me with her? I do not understand myself or people anymore.
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May 29, 2010. Finally the email came on thursday after pestering them for so long. Now i am going to China. Will be back on Singapore on thursday evening first which is the 3rd of June. Maybe flying off again the week after. So to those friends who are reading my blog unlike that previous someone, do sms me if you want to meet up. I will gladly keep my time for you. May 26, 2010. I do thank God for this chance because i will not have gotten this job without Him. May 19, 2010. There is still a small part ...
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March | 2011 | Life
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Archive for March, 2011. Been a year or so. March 24, 2011. Was i not myself in all these years that i believed in Him? What was my aim here in China? I did not know anymore, i kept trying to fight for my own glory here, corrupted by all my desires of having power and money. Nothing i did here was in line with what i wanted to come here for. I really miss Him deep down. What should i choose for? I am really lost…. Been a year or so. Create a free website or blog at WordPress.com.
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October | 2011 | Life
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Archive for October, 2011. October 16, 2011. I have set such a high expectation for myself that i am fearful of it. At times, i paused for a moment in my life and think whether is it all worth it? Am i chasing something that is worthless in life? All my thinking now are so different from when i was in church eons again, have i lost myself in the process? What is preventing me from seeking His presence again? Can i learn to love again? If yes, please let me know YOU back first. Been a year or so.
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June | 2011 | Life
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Archive for June, 2011. June 19, 2011. Been working for the past 2 weeks but i do not feel happy with what i am doing now. Mostly due to the job scope i have been given, not as much learning as what i do expected in the first place. Maybe i wanted to achieve too much stuffs within the shortest period of time. Too rush. Putting work aside will be choosing a birthday present for my god sister whose birthday is coming soon in July. What is life about? June 2, 2011. Where is a place for me? Been a year or so.
