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4 years past..Still breaking down | Fighting the thoughts within me
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Fighting the thoughts within me. What will I feel like today? 4 years past.Still breaking down. October 12, 2013. I’ll be so angry that I spent all this on him because he isn’t mine. That’s what happens. I start spending and like get a rush, I guess because I want it so bad. Then a couple days it hits me the money I’ve spent and I’m angry. So angry. Im just so sad… And like when am I going to get over this? When I’m pregnant again? I think I really need help. Leave a Reply Cancel reply. June 8, 2014.
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I’m adopted and not sure where to go from here… | Fighting the thoughts within me
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Fighting the thoughts within me. What will I feel like today? I’m adopted and not sure where to go from here…. September 15, 2013. So I’m adopted. It’s all good. I’ve lived a great life, I have fantastic parents who love me very much! I have a brother too, but we don’t get along but whatever life goes on! She might not even know anything about me, who knows! But in order to find her I have to go through my bio mom and I really have no interest in finding her so I was stuck and very confused at that point...
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7 Weeks In Inpatient so far… | Fighting the thoughts within me
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Fighting the thoughts within me. What will I feel like today? 7 Weeks In Inpatient so far…. June 8, 2014. Can’t believe I’ve made it this far… Can’t believe I haven’t really done any ED behavioral things… Well, until now. Until my roommate basically brought in morphine from home and asked if I wanted I one! Leave a Reply Cancel reply. Enter your comment here. Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:. Address never made public). You are commenting using your Twitter account. ( Log Out. On My...
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IP Day 7 | Fighting the thoughts within me
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Fighting the thoughts within me. What will I feel like today? April 21, 2014. I want to run, far far away. Never stop. I don’t know where I want to go, I just know I don’t want to be here anymore. I’m on bed rest for. Two weeks. At least! Like are you serious? The doctor says “Do you know how unwell you are? 8221; Uhh well obviously not! I feel fine. I know I have a problem but I feel ok. I just don’t want to eat food. So ya I guess that’s unwell? Ya, that’s fun! Back in Inpatient…. 7 Weeks In Inpatient ...
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The voices started… | Fighting the thoughts within me
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Fighting the thoughts within me. What will I feel like today? The voices started…. March 14, 2014. Well they started again… “DIE DIE DIE” “DO IT DO IT DO IT” “YOURE WORTHLESS” but now things have changed a little they’ve gotten worse. “FAT FAT FAT” “you can’t eat that, don’t eat that, STARVE, water, water water.”. I really do have the capability to overdose and kill myself. I’m so screwed up. I’ve lost myself. Do I want help? Almost wanted to go the ER the other day, they were so bad, oh my god. I starte...
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My days with an eating disorder | Fighting the thoughts within me
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Fighting the thoughts within me. What will I feel like today? My days with an eating disorder. February 20, 2014. First time in my life! So it’s weird! But do I need help? Is it a control thing? Oh god, just even writing this makes me think I need more help then I think. I’m scared, so scared. This isn’t fun. I don’t want this. Those people out there that say they want this are pathetic, they have no idea what this is like. Addicted to my scale…. The voices started… →. February 20, 2014 at 8:05 am. I thi...
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I think I really need help. | Fighting the thoughts within me
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Fighting the thoughts within me. What will I feel like today? I think I really need help. October 1, 2013. After the miscarriage… Who am I? 4 years past.Still breaking down →. 3 responses to “ I think I really need help. The Hope Fed Blog. October 6, 2013 at 8:21 pm. October 12, 2013 at 2:56 am. Thanks Lana, that means a lot. Ya it’s really hard especially when you know something is going to be a trigger but there is nothing you can do about it… My next post is exactly about that… U...You are commenting ...
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My days with an eating disorder | Fighting the thoughts within me
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Fighting the thoughts within me. What will I feel like today? My days with an eating disorder. February 20, 2014. First time in my life! So it’s weird! But do I need help? Is it a control thing? Oh god, just even writing this makes me think I need more help then I think. I’m scared, so scared. This isn’t fun. I don’t want this. Those people out there that say they want this are pathetic, they have no idea what this is like. Addicted to my scale…. The voices started… →. February 20, 2014 at 8:05 am. I thi...
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Back in Inpatient…. | Fighting the thoughts within me
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Fighting the thoughts within me. What will I feel like today? Back in Inpatient…. April 20, 2014. I’m angry. I’m sad. I’m pissed. I’m feeling too many things right now. I never really thought I had an eating disorder. Still don’t, until the doctor says “Do you know how underweight you are? How medically unstable your body is? Hmm like wrong thing to say! I’m just angry, maybe I want attention, maybe I want control, maybe, maybe, MAYBE I DONT KNOW! Then I see that scale and boom anxiety and panic set in a...
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Fighting the thoughts within me. What will I feel like today? I am a 30 year old girl looking for advice or help or an input anyone can give me! One response to “ About. November 4, 2013 at 3:33 am. Your blog is great. I’ve nominated you for a Leibster Award, which generates awareness of up-and-coming blogs. Check out my page to find out more http:/ www.dragonflywomanblog.wordpress.com. Leave a Reply Cancel reply. Enter your comment here. Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:. Absalom�...