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Grieving Angry Widow: March 2012
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Speaking from the heart about widowhood and grief. Tuesday, 27 March 2012. The sun is shining and I don't give a shit. It's 10 weeks today. 10 weird, confusing, frustrating, angst-ridden weeks. I still can't believe he's gone. I can't believe I'll never see him again. How can that be? How can we go through life spending 95% of our time thinking about trivia when one day, in the blink of an eye, it's all over. Forever. Links to this post. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). View my complete profile. Love and Hope...
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Grieving Angry Widow: June 2012
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Speaking from the heart about widowhood and grief. Monday, 18 June 2012. Yesterday was Father's Day. Like we needed another reminder of what we've lost. I went to the grave with my 15 year old and 8 year old. We stood in the rain and put a plant and flowers on the grave. Our hearts broke. What did my children do to deserve this? Fuck off life. You suck. So I took it off, put it down and later that day I saw the chain on the floor with no ring. Oh god! I really thought the dog had swallowed it or somehow ...
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Grieving Angry Widow: April 2012
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Speaking from the heart about widowhood and grief. Wednesday, 25 April 2012. I'm the mother of an adult! My son turned 18 yesterday. I couldn't be more proud of him. A day of such mixed emotions. My handsome, talented boy turning into a man and his Dad not here to see it. I made a Mars Bar cheesecake. It turned out great, if I do say so myself! I am grateful that my children are healthy and here with me. I am trying not to let the grief consume me now. Links to this post. Monday, 23 April 2012. Overall, ...
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Grieving Angry Widow: August 2013
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Speaking from the heart about widowhood and grief. Saturday, 31 August 2013. Grief, you shall not pass. well okay so, just for today. It's a slow and tiring day and another one that has caught me by surprise. I regularly decide to knock grief on the head - it's been 19 months after all. Yeah, I know grief has no timeline, it's different for everyone, it can't be rushed yada yada yada. Yes it's sad that he's gone and I'll never forget him. But what if I start here? Right now. Start fresh. I don't really u...
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Grieving Angry Widow: May 2013
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Speaking from the heart about widowhood and grief. Thursday, 2 May 2013. The Shallows and The Deeps. The hardest part of this awful grief experience has been the broken promises, the awkwardness, the thoughtlesness, of some people. Knowing someone cares, having someone go out of their way to help, having someone who rings up out of the blue to say "I reckoned you're having a bad day, I care" because it's a birthday, anniversary etc, it's worth so so much. And here's the thing. it's not a question of ...
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Grieving Angry Widow: January 2014
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Speaking from the heart about widowhood and grief. Friday, 10 January 2014. The Good The Bad and The Sucky. What have I achieved in the two years since he died? And, on that note, why is life all about what we achieve? Why is it never enough to just 'be' or just 'get by' or just 'exist'? But it's not. Getting by is never enough. Well, I'm glad nobody's critiquing my life (not officially anyway though no doubt people do judge). What can I do now that I couldn't do two years ago? Links to this post. Lonely...
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Grieving Angry Widow: August 2012
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Speaking from the heart about widowhood and grief. Monday, 6 August 2012. Focussing on what I DO have. Focus on what you have in life, not on what you don't have.". I read that line today and although at first the cynical part of me (i.e. 98%) wanted to shoo it away as more self-help clichéd nonsense, I quickly realised there could be some sense in it and perhaps it will help. Is there anything at all to be said for focussing on our loss? Links to this post. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). Not Even A Wren.
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Grieving Angry Widow: May 2012
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Speaking from the heart about widowhood and grief. Wednesday, 30 May 2012. Drawing a line through her old life. Links to this post. Sunday, 27 May 2012. How the nightmare started. I have a hundred million words stored in my head bursting to get out. Details of how D and I got to where we are today and how my life and my children's lives have changed dramatically in the last few months. However, I still have a need (an overwhelming need) to write it all down - not so much the minute detail of helpful diet...
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Grieving Angry Widow: Bread and Dreams...
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Speaking from the heart about widowhood and grief. Friday, 5 September 2014. It was easier when those dreams weren't there. But they arrived this summer after 30 months of darkness. I'll hide them away again soon so I can simply be happy to give yet another lift, cook yet another dinner, clean yet another room, pay yet another overdue bill, read yet another arrears letter, listen to yet another problem, counsel yet another teenage trauma. That's my role in life isn't it? Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom).
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Grieving Angry Widow: November 2012
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Speaking from the heart about widowhood and grief. Monday, 19 November 2012. What's the matter princess? Diarmuid spent 6 nights in the hospice and, while he was there, we slept in the hospice with him. Just 24 hours before he was moved there from the hospital, we thought he was coming home and would start chemotherapy a couple of weeks later but instead he was moved to a hospice to die. She went white and her innocent little face went to pieces and the tears poured out of her. Everybody cried - the ...
