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traceyh415: September 2014
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Stories of parenting, insanity and addiction. Monday, September 29, 2014. An Interview with me about my writing. Http:/ ruthjacobs.co.uk/2014/09/29/tracey-helton-writer-interview/. Friday, September 26, 2014. Guest post SF Bay Area. CHAPTER: "Push Down and Turn". And then I heard it. Im thinking his ass got arrested again .he was always into something and it was pretty common. Thats when the clock stopped, the atmosphere around me went completely silent.all I heard was. In the morning with "i got those".
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Terry's Friend Harry: January 2016
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Boo hoo, I'm a drug addict. Twitter: @TerrysFriendH. Ive been all over the place lately. At the beginning of the summer I was plowing through the Needles, Names, and Numbers drafts, ultima. Friday, January 29, 2016. 8220;What’s good? 8221; Middle Man Mike asks me as he enters the break room. He has a seat across from me and daps me up. “Just taking my half… Lisa still here? 8220;You going to any shows soon? 8221; Middle Man Mike asks. “Yup.” “Word, you wanna trip? 8221; Fuck…. 8221; He asks me. ̶...
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Epidemic- Chapter 36 – CrazyGirlBlogger.com
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Middot; June 15, 2016. He shuts the water off and wraps me up in a big, chocolate brown towel. It is an over-sized towel that encompasses my entire body and it is incredibly soft. Who the hell would say no to that? There was a period of time that I was a complete Jesus freak. Life was so much better then. I had an active prayer life, went to church regularly and surrounded myself with like minded people. All of my music was Christian contemporary and I consulted and trusted God with every lif...Naturally...
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CrazyGirlBlogger.com – Page 10 – I'm Back! Ohmygurd!
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August 26, 2015. Narconon- Rehab Series- Part 11. After three nights of little sleep, I am exhausted. I am unable to fool Stormy today, as he instructs Keisha to walk me around the track and run a light objective. “No smoking,” he.. August 26, 2015. Narconon- Rehab Series- Part 10. I survived my first day and second night here at Narconon. The heat was blaring down on me again last night and at some point Coco got up, walked over to the dresser, took.. August 26, 2015. Narconon- Rehab Series- Part 9.
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traceyh415: Erotic City
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Stories of parenting, insanity and addiction. Friday, July 24, 2015. E verytime I comb my hair,. Thoughts of u get in my eyes" she screams as she pull on her wig. She bounces as she flips her head back with Farrah Fawcet perfection. ". U're a sinner, I don't care. I just want your creamy thighs.". She grabs my hand. THIS," she tells me "THIS is my fucking jam girl.". Why is it that people that can't sing always sing the loudest? Ms Thing is full, I tell myself. Have you lost your fucking mind? She kisses...
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traceyh415: August 2015
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Stories of parenting, insanity and addiction. Monday, August 31, 2015. There have been a few major loves in my life. My husband. My children, of course. And heroin. Why did you do it? It is hard to answer that question. I started out this world as an innocent wide eyed girl. I had a question for everything. I had a great sense of curiosity. Why was the sky blue? Why doesn't the water stay warm? Why is it that the birds all leave when the snow comes. I wanted to know a little bit of everything. Was it jus...
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traceyh415: "Will You Please Bring Me The Nudes?"
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Stories of parenting, insanity and addiction. Monday, July 13, 2015. Will You Please Bring Me The Nudes? I pass her the 40 oz. I see feel that warm carbonation stuck halfway between my throat and my nose. It is as if my body is involuntarily refusing to have this swill enter my stomach cavity. Between the bean burritos from Taco Bell and this Old English, my digestive system WILL find a way to expel these toxic substances. Why don't you want to come work with us? Thank God for that! The only time I need ...
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traceyh415: November 2014
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Stories of parenting, insanity and addiction. Saturday, November 29, 2014. Your hands are cold " she tells me. THAT'S BECAUSE IT IS COLD OUTSIDE. I yell in my mind. Look" I tell her "Just hold still.". I give up. I smile at her to let her know this fucked up situation is okay as she turns her head with dry heaves. She said she was sick. She wasn't lying. I am taking off your shoe" I tell her. The only warm place left on her is her foot. We have been out here far too long. Do I save her then fix? Now, I t...
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traceyh415: June 2015
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Stories of parenting, insanity and addiction. Saturday, June 27, 2015. Nothing to see here. What are you going to do about that thing? I pull up my shorts. "I am going to drain it." I tell him. He gives me a look of feigned disgust. This isn't his first time at the junkie rodeo. "Right here? I start looking for a good spot to poke. "yes," I tell him "right here.". No Is there speed? No Is there benzos? No Is there tv? No Is there food? How many more days can I live like this? Are you suffering today?
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traceyh415: When All the Tears Are On The Inside
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Stories of parenting, insanity and addiction. Thursday, August 6, 2015. When All the Tears Are On The Inside. The waves of depression roll over me. They cover my body like the tide, they are synced to the many cycles of my moons. The depression goes and and out of my lungs. It feels like my breathing. It is as shallow as my desires. I haven't washed these blankets in six months? Some people will ask what happened to me. WHAT happened to your little girl Bob? August 17, 2015 at 2:15 PM. Nourishing a New Me.