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Soul Extracts: December 2007
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Monday, December 31, 2007. Live to fight another day. Posted by Dark Phoenix at 1:55 AM. Friday, December 14, 2007. No matter what, dads, despite our differences and past histories, I hope that my stoic acceptance of the facts of life will make you proud of me. I will march through the gates of the underworld with my head held high as I whisper a prayer to Gabriel to watch over me. Posted by Dark Phoenix at 12:49 AM. Wednesday, December 12, 2007. This is my decision. And get some sleep. Really. And I can...
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Wanderings Of A Philosophical Wonderer: December 2006
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Wanderings Of A Philosophical Wonderer. Gay, philosophical, poetic, dark, light. ME. Saturday, December 30, 2006. Something so insubstantial, and yet so very real? How will the term 'psychic' be defined? Rubbish. There's an explanation for everything. Posted by fallen angel at 11:15 PM. Hmm Oops. I was supposed to have called Kenneth ten minutes ago. Well.adios. Amigos para siempre. Love may come and go, but we'll always have each other, my friends. =) You guys know who you are. Could this be it? Posted ...
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Wanderings Of A Philosophical Wonderer: September 2006
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Wanderings Of A Philosophical Wonderer. Gay, philosophical, poetic, dark, light. ME. Saturday, September 30, 2006. I did pretty well on these tests. =) Oh, yeah. I have GOT to break my bad habit of falling asleep with my computer on. Usually my MSN status will still be 'Online' or 'Busy', and I get so many conversation windows. . Posted by fallen angel at 6:19 AM. Friday, September 29, 2006. Does it really make a difference? When we die, would gender still matter? Posted by fallen angel at 7:57 AM. I've ...
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Wanderings Of A Philosophical Wonderer: January 2007
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Wanderings Of A Philosophical Wonderer. Gay, philosophical, poetic, dark, light. ME. Wednesday, January 31, 2007. Ah, I give up. I will not be able to sleep anyway. A note in parting.I am surprised by how deeply people in general can blind themselves to what they simply refuse to see. It never fails to astound me, this self-induced blindness. *sighs* The birds have already started their morning call, cacophonous as it is. And for once, I have not observed the night! Posted by fallen angel at 6:06 AM.
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Soul Extracts: November 2007
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Sunday, November 25, 2007. A father's love for a son is sacred. Yet why do men defile the sanctity of this bond? My father is just a man, at 19 I know that now. But in my eyes he was so much more. He was everything I wanted to be, he was everything I looked up to. So tell me now, as I sit alone in my dark room on a cold Sunday night, who was it who destroyed our bond as father and son? Him by coming into my room at 3 in the morning four years ago, or me for being so weak? I feel betrayed by my own father.
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Soul Extracts: June 2008
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Saturday, June 28, 2008. My type is INTP. Go figure. For anyone who wants to know more about my personality: http:/ typelogic.com/intp.html. Http:/ en.wikipedia.org/wiki/INTP. The gist: INTPs are pensive, analytical folks. They may venture so deeply into thought as to seem detached, and often actually are oblivious to the world around them. Well, what do you know. That's me, according to the Internet Gods. Posted by Dark Phoenix at 2:40 AM. Friday, June 27, 2008. Do you resent me for having said yes?
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Soul Extracts: February 2008
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Monday, February 25, 2008. Stay broken. I wonder sometimes if my life is coming to a close. I wonder if tonight will be my last night. I have fought Fate at every turn, fighting everyone and everything just to survive and find my place in this world. I am tired of fighting. I will fix everything that I have ever done wrong, and when I go out tonight,. This time, it's personal. Posted by Dark Phoenix at 6:58 PM. Friday, February 22, 2008. You curse me with your 'gift', Gabriel. Friday, February 8, 2008.
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Soul Extracts: January 2008
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Tuesday, January 29, 2008. Posted by Dark Phoenix at 3:28 PM. Sunday, January 27, 2008. I am afraid of my parents' reaction. This is a whole lot worse than the coming-out-fiasco. My whole life has always been about illusions. And now when I have been so terribly weakened by the many battles I fight, I find myself staring at the roiling mass of darkness in the mirror and wondering what the fuck I did to end up this way. Who on God's green Earth can save me from myself? What do I do come morning? Eyes My m...
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Wanderings Of A Philosophical Wonderer: May 2006
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Wanderings Of A Philosophical Wonderer. Gay, philosophical, poetic, dark, light. ME. Tuesday, May 16, 2006. Anyway, I have been up at all unearthly hours of the night. Writing, reflecting, and just finding solace in my solitude. I have no idea how I'm going to manage 8 days at home after months of being apart from them . Posted by fallen angel at 12:46 AM. Tuesday, May 09, 2006. Posted by fallen angel at 12:49 AM. Sunday, May 07, 2006. Posted by fallen angel at 10:53 PM. Friday, May 05, 2006.
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Wanderings Of A Philosophical Wonderer: April 2006
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Wanderings Of A Philosophical Wonderer. Gay, philosophical, poetic, dark, light. ME. Wednesday, April 26, 2006. But even that has been waning. My eyes are falling closed. School starts at 9 tomorrow. I'm so so so sleepy. Where has my zest for life gone? Posted by fallen angel at 2:03 AM. Sunday, April 23, 2006. I want my dad to stop avoiding me. Period. Ass lah. I'm feeling more and more disgruntled with each passing minute. WTF did I do to make him avoid me? Posted by fallen angel at 10:38 PM. Hmm I'm c...