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Stressed! | Life. Post. Affair.
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Life Post. Affair. Life and marriage after my husband's affair. August 12, 2015. This is my last week of work. I’m freaking out about that more than I thought I would. I mean, I’ve been working since I was 16, nearly half my life! To suddenly not have a job seems — strange and foreign. So we need the house to sell. And for his visa to be issued. We need to get over there so he can start making money again! I am ready, ready to get out of here and leave all the reminders this town holds of the affair.
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A Great Definition of Love for me and a thank you to commenter RWS | How To Not Hate My Husband
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How To Not Hate My Husband. Experiments and thoughts on how not to hate my husband after his 2 year affair with my best friend (ex). Who exactly are we talking about? A Great Definition of Love for me and a thank you to commenter RWS. August 11, 2015. Love is a demonstrated preference for the well being of others, over and above myself, even at great personal expense, with the help of God’s Holy Spirit. Reading that at church I held back tears. I loved him and I continue to love him now. And that I’...
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Just like that | Life. Post. Affair.
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Life Post. Affair. Life and marriage after my husband's affair. July 15, 2015. He is mine and I am his. Our past is painful, but our future, unknown though it is, feels bright. Love is confusing, confounding, and blinding. Right now, I’m enjoying the flood of love i felt when I saw him at the airport. When it comes right down to it, I want to be happy. And that means that at some point, I’ll have to let the affair go. Maybe not right away, but the day is coming. 3 thoughts on “ Just like that. You are co...
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Anxiety and Healing | Life. Post. Affair.
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Life Post. Affair. Life and marriage after my husband's affair. July 21, 2015. Honestly, my anxiety is up. And it’s manifesting in ways that I don’t like namely, in making me a nervous basket case and encouraging me to spend too much time thinking about the affair (i.e. What and who my husband was doing at this moment last year. Rather than focusing on the present. Both of which leave me feeling quite optimistic and happy. My last day of work is August 14. And that’s how I’m looking at everything right n...
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nothatemyhusband | How To Not Hate My Husband
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How To Not Hate My Husband. Experiments and thoughts on how not to hate my husband after his 2 year affair with my best friend (ex). Who exactly are we talking about? Maybe it’s the candy talking but I AM MAD! November 3, 2016. So boy’s birthday is coming up and well. I was thinking of ways he would feel happy. Raising a teenager kind of sucks for me right now, because well… I kinda suck at it. I loved it when me and the boy had a connection. now he changes all over the place. Who the fuck am I with?
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Running | Life. Post. Affair.
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Life Post. Affair. Life and marriage after my husband's affair. July 16, 2015. July 21, 2015. I never want to be there. Again I never want to stumble upon such an awful secret. I want to be loved, valued and respected. I want to be told the truth. Loving him is so much harder than I ever would have guessed. Life. Is so much harder than I was prepared for. Is everyone I know living this way, seeming fine on the ouside but secretly in pain, alone and afraid? It’s not even that today was bad. I am trying to...
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Who I was and who I am now | How To Not Hate My Husband
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How To Not Hate My Husband. Experiments and thoughts on how not to hate my husband after his 2 year affair with my best friend (ex). Who exactly are we talking about? Who I was and who I am now. August 15, 2015. August 16, 2015. Its a big thing with me also the depression I think had a lot to do with my lack of praying and talking to my friends. Over this past week. I relapsed with porn. I became super disgruntled. I haven’t prayed for anyone or even myself. And my house and my kids took a huge back seat.
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Depressed or Lazy doesn’t really matter.. | How To Not Hate My Husband
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How To Not Hate My Husband. Experiments and thoughts on how not to hate my husband after his 2 year affair with my best friend (ex). Who exactly are we talking about? Depressed or Lazy doesn’t really matter. August 12, 2015. I think I’m depressed all I want to do is eat under my covers. Since yesterday morning. I cannot do them both at the same time. But whenever I am eating or sleeping I feel the most at peace. I think I’m just tired, groggy, sluggish. Bleh I hate that. I’m sleepy and grumpy. I wanted t...
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My reformed Slut boy | How To Not Hate My Husband
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How To Not Hate My Husband. Experiments and thoughts on how not to hate my husband after his 2 year affair with my best friend (ex). Who exactly are we talking about? My reformed Slut boy. August 13, 2015. That’s what Rizzo used to call him. She would say “NH okay, but there are so many good qualities about him”. She would make me get a pad of paper out and write. Slut Boy on one side and all the bad qualities and the Good things on the other. I can see that as both admirable and cowardly. I know I know ...
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The sting and guilt | How To Not Hate My Husband
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How To Not Hate My Husband. Experiments and thoughts on how not to hate my husband after his 2 year affair with my best friend (ex). Who exactly are we talking about? The sting and guilt. August 12, 2015. I hate that I think of her still in the most mundane things like cooking. Kendra pops in and it hurts. However simple details will come to me in the strAngest of ways. Like our conversations about pretzel buns whenever I thin about making pretzels. Which only seems to corrupt my mind even more. And I fe...