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Yearning For Perfection: November 2008
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When good just isn't good enough'. Sunday, November 16, 2008. This week has been a pretty fat week. BUT this is the start of a new week! I'm going out with S now, and I will lose weight. He's Chinese, so he's used to thin girls and he's fussy. So I can't gain weight. In fact, I have to lose weight and start dressing better. He doesn't expect me to, obviously, but I have incentive now. Which is good. Tests tomorrow, and on Tuesday. I'm not prepared at all. Which sucks. But tomorrow's another day, right?
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Yearning For Perfection: 12/1/09
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When good just isn't good enough'. Monday, January 12, 2009. I am a fucking fatass and I hate myself. I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel like I've barely been doing anything recently. Seriously, what do I waste my time on? I revise but I don't get smarter. I allow myself to eat anything I want with barely a second thought. I feel shitty. Seriously! Maybe I should start posting more often. It'll motivate me more. Just recently I haven't been feeling the motivation for.anything. I'm going to try sta...
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Yearning For Perfection: October 2008
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When good just isn't good enough'. Monday, October 27, 2008. I just don't know what to do about my life. I just don't know anymore. In a stage of happiness and deep depression. I want to write more, but what can I say? I just don't know anymore. I just feel so alone. Why am I so lonely? B doesn't want to hear it anymore. I talked, and attempted to talk to him a second ago, and he made so little conversation that it's obvious.and we've just stopped talking. I want to say something, but I can't. On top of ...
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Yearning For Perfection: 13/11/08
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When good just isn't good enough'. Thursday, November 13, 2008. What the. fuck. I knew I had gained weight, but I just didn't acknowledge it. But I tried on a dress today that I bought about a year ago, and it was just that little bit tighter. I don't like to commiserate with other girls about being so fat because I'm not like other girls. I can do something about this. I am different. I. Right, no more excuses. I've been eating a lot because I'm stressed and tired and think it will help me 'recover&...
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Yearning For Perfection: 21/1/09
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When good just isn't good enough'. Saturday, January 24, 2009. Has anyone else noticed MAJOR bingeing during their period? Cuz I have been eating NON-STOP and I feel fucking disgusting. And I mean seriously non-stop. I just was making 'low fat' chocolate cupcakes, and I just binged on the dough. And then I purged, and realized how much I ate. And that's only a. Teensy weensy little bit. Of what I've eaten today. UGH UGH UGH! But even so, right now I sort of feel like I want to die because I'm so fat.
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Yearning For Perfection: August 2008
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When good just isn't good enough'. Sunday, August 31, 2008. Didn't post yesterday because my mom was around, and I know she certainly wouldn't approve of this blog. Anyway, my thoughts from yesterday.went out (again! With my friend, which was rather nice. I haven't seen her properly in ages, so it was a bit of a catch-up. She's been having a few problems recently, so we chatted about that among other things. However, you know what going out means.eating a lot. Here's what I ate:. Exercise- walked approx&...
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Yearning For Perfection: 4/1/09
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When good just isn't good enough'. Sunday, January 4, 2009. I danced today again for 15min and it was so much fun, except I accidentally hit myself on the head with one of my weights. Didn't hurt too much, actually. Am about to go do my exercise routine. I already feel a bit more toned! And I'm eating a lot healthier. I didn't realize how many hidden calories there are in some of my favourite foods, so I'm around 1200-1400 right now. (yes, I know, so much! D your blog is amazing lol. Hippie Ana = Hana(!
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Yearning For Perfection: September 2008
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When good just isn't good enough'. Tuesday, September 30, 2008. Basically, told B, and he has made me promise I will stop and I have to tell him how everything is going. S also knows, and all my friends at school are worried and probably have some idea but don't. Know, so everyone is going to keep an eye on me anyway. And I can't try anything anyone, because I promised B. ButI really want to. And it's hard. Now that I'm 'recovering', it's getting. For me to eat. Harder! How dare you tell me this, when ev...
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Yearning For Perfection: 16/10/08
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When good just isn't good enough'. Sunday, November 16, 2008. This week has been a pretty fat week. BUT this is the start of a new week! I'm going out with S now, and I will lose weight. He's Chinese, so he's used to thin girls and he's fussy. So I can't gain weight. In fact, I have to lose weight and start dressing better. He doesn't expect me to, obviously, but I have incentive now. Which is good. Tests tomorrow, and on Tuesday. I'm not prepared at all. Which sucks. But tomorrow's another day, right?