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Silence and Darkness | The Third Party
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Phase 4,333: Disgust. Long Time, No Post →. September 22, 2014. Since my therapy session last Tuesday, I haven’t had much to say. It triggered the most insecure parts of myself, where rejection, pain, fear, and darkness reside. This week is her wedding anniversary and I’m feeling that deeply. I’m also still wondering if there will be a baby announcement coming soon. Apart from fearing for her, as she remains in an emotionally abusive marriage, I fear for myself more than anything else. Fill in your detai...
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Phase 4,333: Disgust | The Third Party
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Silence and Darkness →. Phase 4,333: Disgust. September 13, 2014. While the title of this blog post is humorous, entering the disgust phase is hardly that. From my and Wendy’s therapy session on Tuesday, a floodgate of frustration has opened. Imagine a total outpouring of emotional disgust mixed with apathy and wanting to disappear (again). Let me get this straight: this. Is she looking for an affair redux? Is that not enough? To soften me and invite me back? Silence and Darkness →. Notify me of new comm...
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Newer posts →. Be Vulnerable to Vulnerability. August 29, 2014. Sorry for my absence, friends. I am now bringing you up to speed. So, in my last post, I told you about my one-year anniversary and post-D-Day no contact rule. I am still enforcing that for myself and holding to it. I’m incredibly sad, but I will not interfere with Nancy’s family; I do not belong in her life as an affair partner or friend (completely unrealistic). That abrupt. Or, at the very least, rarely that abrupt. Courtesy: Soap Box Blog.
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Parallels and Pins | The Third Party
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September 3, 2014. Part of my weekly therapy sessions is spent discussing Pinterest. Now, it’s a popular social media platform, but hardly what one might expect to be discussed during an emotional “chat.”. Nevertheless, Nancy–the Pinterest wonder–has been at it again. While I refrain from keeping a virtual “eye” on her, my good friend Ben updated me, as he follows her teaching board. (Note to self: smash Ben’s laptop and de-wire his internet access at midnight.). Course, another quote by Tolkien:. Togeth...
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Foreboding | The Third Party
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Friendship: A Great Insult →. September 7, 2014. Lately, I’m finding it difficult to remain emotionally firm and hopeful. I find that a few days after my therapy sessions–usually at the beginning of every week–I am “injected” with some much needed strength and coping. However, as the week progresses, it all wears off. What temporarily numbs the pain of dealing with the aftermath of Nancy is gone. Admittedly, I haven’t cried for (maybe) two days, which is something of an achievement. Is it all really over?
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Long Time, No Post | The Third Party
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Long Time, No Post. October 20, 2014. I’m sorry for my absence. Thanks to those who have reached out. This month is 1 year since our first date and other memories. Working with Wendy, I managed to allow myself to commemorate the special dates. To be happy despite the way things are now. Since I’ve posted pins, perhaps she changed this pic to hurt me in some way. I’m honestly confused. The path to narc abuse recovery/codependency is long and painful. I wish her well. A sincere and heartfelt thank you.
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D-Day | The Third Party
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D-Day, that is the discovery of my affair with Nancy, was January 8, 2014. A bitter, cold day. Happy New Year. Leave a Reply Cancel reply. Enter your comment here. Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:. Address never made public). You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. ( Log Out. You are commenting using your Twitter account. ( Log Out. You are commenting using your Facebook account. ( Log Out. You are commenting using your Google account. ( Log Out. Long Time, No Post.
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Friendship: A Great Insult | The Third Party
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Scream: Delusional →. Friendship: A Great Insult. September 7, 2014. There’s ongoing debate about remaining friends after a breakup. Some people offer friendship as a way to numb the pain, or soften the blow they deliver to–most times–an unsuspecting partner. In my situation, I don’t know if I’m alone in believing that friendship is not only next to impossible, but terribly unrealistic. Who remains “friends” with an affair partner? Is she completely out of her fucking mind? How can I be a friend? I think...
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She’s Baaaaack! | The Third Party
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Long Time, No Post. November 2, 2014. A few weeks ago, I told you guys about her pinning spree and her “spy” friend, Hannah. I struggled to make sense of Nancy’s online behaviors–good luck–and then tried to connect whether or not Hannah’s “visit” during my yoga shift was, in fact, a setup. I think I have the answer now. I didn’t count on Hannah. I walked in to see Nancy huddled with Hannah–surprise! 8211;and another woman. I was stunned! I felt watched by her and Hannah–very high school! 8211;as I looked...
