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A Miserable Relief | Fighting For Sanity

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Sort of not depressed, flirting with mindfulness. Asymp; Leave a comment. After three weeks of chasing an ever-increasing number of people at the council they have finally more or less agreed to fund 2son through the summer after he returned to school. Final confirmation will wait until somebody returns from holiday on Monday. So it’s agreed, but we’ve been asked not to tell 2son until it’s agreed. He can’t come home. He needs more care than I can give him. I can’t cope. 2son has no mental health disorde...

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Awards and Anxiety | This Compassionate Life

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Living on the emotional edge. I know, 2 updates in a week! That’s how it goes with me though, I’m unpredictable like that.). I usually try to stay away from my blog stats, as it is all too easy to become anxious as to how many hits or lack thereof I’m getting. (The traffic to this blog is proportional to how frequently I post, so there are usually no surprises anyway! I knew the awards were going on, of course, but I stayed well away from them due to (what else? January 20, 2012. Life’s a Beach. I kinda ...

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Get Off On The Pain: About That...

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Get Off On The Pain. Thursday, September 6, 2012. It's worth a shot. I don't remember. It's a miracle that I didn't kill myself, or someone else on that drive home. Looking back, I am completely disgusted with my lack of self-respect. How could I let him walk all over me like that? I look back at that girl that I was, and she doesn't even feel. Like me. We ended up breaking up for about 2 months, later on that year. I'd starting dating someone else when he came back, and told me he wanted me. Where Did I...

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Get Off On The Pain: Debby Downer

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Get Off On The Pain. Friday, September 21, 2012. I've not been feeling well lately. I've been pretty depressed as of late, and haven't had the energy to do anything. One of the things I haven't had the energy to do lately is blog. For the last week, every day I've thought, "I should blog". Then I sigh, and say, "Tomorrow". It also makes it almost impossible to be around the hubby's aunt. I'm seeing red. I hate her. I curse her in my head. She says the most. I think at this point I told her I had a headac...

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Get Off On The Pain: The Aftermath of a Panic Attack

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Get Off On The Pain. Friday, July 6, 2012. The Aftermath of a Panic Attack. My panic attack was triggered by an impromptu visit to my sister-in-law's house. I'm normally triggered by her daughter, my niece, at her house but this time, she had something that triggers me far beyond children. Animals. Without food and water? As soon as we were in the car, driving down the street, the attack came. I could feel the panic rising in my chest, and my heart began to beat fast. Then faster. I began hav...It lasted...

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Get Off On The Pain: June 2012

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Get Off On The Pain. Friday, June 29, 2012. Oh, lord. Remember how I said I had my first psychiatric appointment on the 28th? Seeing their doctors. I explained what had happened, and the receptionist told me there was nothing she could do, and hung up the phone. The people calling them are people that need. I can't stay where I'm at, I have to take a step forward. He paused. Then he said, "So, you have questions? He exhaled. "Ok. I understand. We'll talk tomorrow". I think I was in even. It's getting lat...

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Get Off On The Pain: Weekend In Hell

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Get Off On The Pain. Monday, August 20, 2012. There is some pretty frank language in this entry. Do not read if you are so dainty as to not want to read some cursing. I warned you.* * * * * * * * *. It was a really shitty weekend. I loathe staying at my husband's mother's home. Really, really. Loathe staying there. She lives in a single wide trailer that she never. Cleans. The house is filthy. An inch of dirt on everything. I saw red most of the weekend, so consumed in my hatred of Aunt was I. I'm st...

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Get Off On The Pain: Where Did It All Begin?

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Get Off On The Pain. Sunday, June 24, 2012. Where Did It All Begin? I'm 4 days away from my first appointment with a psychiatrist, and I've pondered this thought for a long time now. Ever since I kinda, sorta put the puzzle pieces together, I've been reaching and straining to really, really put the pieces together. Is that why we moved? Is that why I wasn't allowed to see my uncle? If so, why would they let him back in our lives? Did my grandmother know about this? Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom).

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Get Off On The Pain: Time For A Break

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Get Off On The Pain. Thursday, August 23, 2012. Time For A Break. I need to get out of here. My time here with my husband's aunt has quickly morphed into a miserable time. Respect and mutual liking I used to have for her? She says she does. Knowing how bad it hurts, how could she inflect that pain on another person? I can't wrap my head around it. I handle myself with class, and a lot of times bite my tongue instead of saying the evil things that are going on in my head. It starts all over again? What ha...

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Get Off On The Pain: Self-Sabotge?

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Get Off On The Pain. Friday, June 29, 2012. Oh, lord. Remember how I said I had my first psychiatric appointment on the 28th? Seeing their doctors. I explained what had happened, and the receptionist told me there was nothing she could do, and hung up the phone. The people calling them are people that need. I can't stay where I'm at, I have to take a step forward. He paused. Then he said, "So, you have questions? He exhaled. "Ok. I understand. We'll talk tomorrow". I think I was in even. It's getting lat...